O....HOW GOOD IT FEELS TO BE SINGLE AGAIN!!!!!...and anbody that knows how my situtuation is with marky..its not like that anymore..it is really really over now..i live with my mom..i have already moved all my stuff over here..and im not even really  sad...i dont know if that is a good thing or bad.....i dont know..im grown when it comes to being the mother of my child..but im just not ready for marriage..im only 18..and i still have my whole life in front of me....well..at least it would of been better if he would have just treated me right.....it gets so tired after awhile....i gave him so many chances...i guess he thought that i wasnt being serious....i kept telling him that i was falling out of love with him that he was treaing me so bad and that he needed to quit but i guess that he didnt believe me....and now hes trying to get back with me and telling me that he will change and all this other stuff..but he wont he says it every time and even if he would than i still wouldnt take him back jsut for the simple fact of how he has done me and i just really dont care anymore...im not afraid of being single..it actually feels pretty damn good....and i can go out now..and chill with my girls and my boys.....cuz he wouldnt let me do anything..but anyways im about to go now.......its so hot outside..i need to lay out and get my white self a tan.....

mann..i hate being sick...ive been sick for like 3 freaking days...it sucks...i hope i start feeling better before tonight...were supposed to being hitting up the club..and no i dont mean stestuns...we going to la vela...i heard it was bumping last night....but i wouldnt really be able to tell you cuz i just stayed at hom all night...argued with marky..god that crap gets so old..and we'll be doing it our whole life...no matter what..because i always have to see him because weve started a family together....well i guess i bout to go take care of my lil one....he is doing really good..i just got his pictures back...they are sooooo adorable........

well..i never ended up going out the other night...blank mission....well lets see whats good.....nothing really....me and marky went to the mall the other day and he bought me a wedding ring..because we never got to get one before because we got married when he was in jail so i picked out a ring..its pretty and everything..but im falling out of love with him..i really am...and i dont think that he thinks that im being serious....i mean i love him and i probably always will...but not IN love with him...there is a BIG difference in the two...omg...if yall could onnly see my lil one...he so cute...if you put him on your lap in front of the computer screen he will type something with both hands and then look up at the screen like hes really typing ....then he will go and put his other hand on the mouse and move it...its sooooooooooo adorable...and sooo smart for 6 months..i will have to video tape it......well i guess that im bout to go...its so ugly out today....makes you just want to stay in the house and watch movies..hmm...that sounds good...........hehe...bye